Gratitude

Today I just want to state that I am grateful for my weight loss, and for all of the other changes that have taken place in my life over the past 18 months. 18 months ago I asked the wrong man to marry me, and as things go he said yes. Today is the date we had set for our wedding, and it is not happening; Thanks be to God!! When I think of the things that likely would not have happened if I had not had the spiritual cataracts removed from my eyes on May 21 last year; the day I ended the engagement and relationship;my mind boggles.

• I know I would not have joined anytime fitness, where I feel encouraged, and known
• I would not have gone vegan
• I would not have lost 56 pounds
• I would have gained weight
• I would not be happy (even today, the wedding day)
• I would not have the deeper relationship with The Holy One that I have now
• I would not be a Novice in the Community of the Gospel
• I would not be in school
• I would not be at St. Johns
• I would still be on HBP meds
• I would still be on high doses of psych meds
• My jaw would be tighter
• I would be getting married to a man I knew I did not love
• I would not have been able to simplify my life

I am sure there are things I have missed on this list , they might come to me as the day goes on. I do wish him the best in all of his endeavours, and I pray for his recovery . 

I am happy I am not getting marries to him today, or ever.